Happy 26th Jonn

Sitting together on a quiet Hawaiian afternoon Jonn began talking under his breath.Of course that's not unusual for a child of five but I turned and asked " Are you talking to me?'
" No Im practicing talking to God so that when I ask Him into my heart He can hear me"
Smiling I explained that He always hears and always knows where you are.

So on that quiet afternoon Jonn bowed his head making the decision to always be heard by Him.
"Mom it felt like a tickle when Jesus came into my heart."

Today -his 26th birthday- I am so thankful that I taught this child the Life giving message of Gods good news.

And today as a family we miss celebrating his earthly years, but my Mother's heart finds deep pleasure that his life celebration continues as he stands in the company of the One who always hears.

SUMMER SNOW

The Wind has swept away the last of Winter's frosty touch.
No more icy flakes swirling across the landscape.
Warmth has returned and the Cottonwoods are celebrating.
They twist and they turn and they shake themselves
Showering us in gentle Summer snow.

THE UNLOVED BRIDE

She hardly knew me but I dont think she knew many people.
She thought of me as a friend even though I cant remember her name.
She confided in me as I held back my judgement.

He didnt want to marry her but there was a baby coming.
It was 1974 and you did the" right" thing .

So there we stood at an alter in a strange church.
The thrift store wedding gown hung loosely on her thin frame. The white of her dress matched the white of her face .
She held a single red rose- the only flower in the empty church.

She looked to the groom standing beside her for a sign of love or reassurance but he stared straight ahead obviously bored and annoyed.
The Pastor said words.
The groom didnt kiss his bride but hurriedly walked off with her trailing behind.

The aloneness of that hour still haunts me as I think of the girl I only remember as the UNLOVED BRIDE.

The Line is Silent

The phone no longer rings from the woman I called sister.
There are no more laughs or sighs or unsolicited advice.
The stories of our childhood are now only mine and the laughter of our youth never shared again.
Our Life moments go unspoken because the line is silent on the other end.

Hard Core and Grimm

  This summer I read a few good books.

 I came from a family of book lovers so books were a most cherished gift throughout childhood. Im always saddened when people say they dont read for pleasure- to me its like having never seen the ocean or a full moon.

  On my 8th birthday my Great Aunt Edithe presented me with a two volume set of GRIMMS fairy tales.
No not the sanitized Disney version but the real blood + guts, never enter the woods alone version!

  Do you know the real ending to Cinderella and what happened to her step-family? Lets say mutilation   played a part in that ending. And what young mind doesnt need a story where the father chops off the hands of his daughter so the Devil will give him back his soul in THE GIRL WITHOUT HANDS. Of course Hansel + Gretel never left home again!

  In spite of the gruesomeness these stories always had a moral. Good was rewarded and evil punished. They taught the virtue of patient suffering and endurance when wronged. The pitiful protagonist was rewarded with restoration and abundance and the bad guy got what he deserved.

  Since this was some of my foundational reading in the 3rd grade WINNIE THE POOH didnt make the list. I did enjoy its charm when I read it to my own children years later but my reading list went straight to more mature and dramatic adventures of classical literature for kids and young adults. Tragedies and dilemmas, victories and defeats, life and death for characters across the globe + the centuries, painting my imagination and giving me dreams beyond the walls of my small bedroom.

As bookstores close around the country and kids are shocked to learn that the Lord of the Rings was a book before it was a movie I wonder who will carry the tried and true literature home to a special reading nook for an afternoon of pleasure.

 What your favorite or the strangest book youve ever read?



   

My Nest is on the Edge or the Summer of Extreme living

This is my season of extreme living. 

No Im not taking up cliff diving or anything that exciting.

Im just traveling back and forth between dwelling places every few weeks.

My Warrior is training for a SOCIAL experiment that will eventually take him back to Afghanistan  (more on that later). His man cave is located in Kansas City, Mo so I'll be making the 5 1/2 hour journey-(4 if I drive)  every few weeks.

Its extreme living not because KC is wild and uninhabitable. Quite the contrary! Its a very fun place.

But its extreme in my level of activities. When Im home in OKC I have to act like a responsible adult-  pay bills, weed garden, fix minor problems.  Of course,the best part is all my grandmonkeys, kids + friends to catch up with. Then back to Jazz City for laying by the pool, shopping , sight-seeing and general vacation fun. I have one 21 year old friend to run around with. Her husband is in the same training as Warrior so that helps with the loneliness of missing family. Mike is always up for fun when he gets home so its dinner, movie etc. 

Don't misunderstand I'm not complaining!!! Just commenting that my Gypsy nature is being tested as I live a half-n-half life fully. Its not often that you get a stress free summer or re-experience the first year of marriage before kids, endless laundry,constant meal planning and the activities of busy family life.  Its nice to have an "empty" nest with a little more money, a little more understanding of what is important in caring for one another + the knowing that all moments are important and should be lived with joy.